24th January, 2016.
It’s been a while that I blogged anything right? Yes, sorry
about that, I am lagging behind and I cannot guarantee to make it up even
though I try. Anyways, I am here right now, writing, and that should be the
main focus I guess.
Quite an interesting thing happened a few days ago, and one
of my friends believes that it was meant to be, calling it a mystical
intervention. I cannot either agree or disagree with him because I haven’t faced
anything like that before. You may even be assured of it that I am still
looking for an answer.
The people who are close to me will know of my habit to
doodle on my registers or paper whenever I am bored. People in my class or
university will not find any class note but doodles on almost every page. I do
not know why I do it, they are amateurish as anything; I tend to believe that
it helps me think and focus. So, as my
penchant dictates, I made a pure random doodle in one of my notes while reading
and posted it to instagram, the photosharing social site. There was no
crying-out-loud need for that, but I did.
I hadn’t noticed it until the said friend pointed it out to
me that the doodle that I drew bore a striking, uncanny resemblance to someone I
know/used to know. Believe me when I say this, I never had any inclination to
do so. It was purely a coincidence that it happened at a very random choice,
because that is what I do to keep myself from burning things down. So it
happened.
Now, this good friend of mine asked me why I drew something that
uncannily bore a resemblance to someone, which any normal friend would do. I had
no answer because I didn’t, that I am assured of, or was assured of. As any
skeptic, I do believe that there cannot be an otherworldly explanation for anything.
However my friend begs to differ, and he did something that he never does, not
on a general basis; he implored me to take this as a sign, a miracle and asks
me to take another chance at something that I left ages ago, faith or belief or
whatever the fancy word is. As he said and I quote “I have seen enough life to
know that we sometimes can’t really explain everything and that a mystic force
does exist”.
Do I believe him? Well that is a good question if you ask
me, for I really do not know how to approach this. Maybe he is right; maybe
there is something that I cannot explain about this. Or maybe I can just say
that this doodle, this silly piece of pen drawing is just a work of my subconscious
as we all know that the greatest mystery of universe is the human brain, especially
when it acts on its own. I’d verily choose the former one, because it is intriguing.
The only question is how? How do I choose? And even if I do, what is the point
after that? So what if there indeed is something that made this happen made me
draw the person in question, then what? Will it be all? Or is there anything left
to go further than this?
Maybe, the singular answer is that I am stupid enough to
believe that and coward enough to let it be, and not acting on it. Or maybe I do
know the answer already. Not by precognition or anything, but my past mistake
and experiences. As they say, mistake maketh man. And believe me I have a great
share of mistakes in my bag. As much I do have a knack for silly mistakes, I am
not entirely supportive of committing the same ones twice. I do them occasionally,
but that’s it to them.
I guess, I would like some answers, and a talk. Okay maybe
forget the answers, just along talk over coffee would be suffice. I will wait.
Regards.
