10th November, 2014.
Dear bohemian,
First of all, don’t worry, this is not the substitute for the letters that I intend to write today, I will write it on paper as I have been doing, this one just something entirely else. I wanted to say something and since you’re unavailable, I guess this will have to do the job.
Umm… I don’t know! I had this one sorted out, but now it’s all running away from my mind, like a crowd dispersing away from something horrifying, I’ll try my best to gather things up. You asked me to give you a valid reason that why should you be ‘answering’ to them. I tried to, but in utter frankness, I have no reason at all. No reasons as to why should you visit. I know now you’ll ask why then I gave you those reasons, but believe me, I had no other option. I am sorry. I was angry and my mind was like one raging battlefield. I was fucked up when you said you won’t come. I won’t repeat it here again; instead, I shall try to make one point. One simple expanded point.
I know you can’t process the complication of things, and it is not a bad thing, simplicity is something what we all try to achieve. But, please, just try to disperse from the everyday conundrum you hold and listen. Sometimes, it too is okay to face the complication; I am not saying that you have to be on a quest to solve all that is complicated, but the things in the light of recent events that we both are going through, it was bound to happen that sooner or later, we were to face this kind of thing. The reason why they want to meet you is because they do not want it to be too late! They don’t want to go things totally out of hand where there would be nothing left to be sorted out anymore. I know this may sound hard for you, but believe me, I too am not in very much of a comfort either! You are one person who makes everything right for me in my life, the one who matters the most and I do not want anything to go into dire chaos. Sure there will be nothing wrong, I believe it, and probably you believe it too, but please, just stop and think! If I was in your place, I would have to face such things too, and I know this very well that I WILL!! There will be a time when I will be the one who’ll face such complication too, I am getting ready anyway! So please, after reading this, be very calm and think if it’s justified or not. Well, you are coming anyway. I just wanted to speak. I couldn’t get my eyes together last night. I slept all day today but the same thing was crossing out. I needed to write.
Believe me darling, I hate to be this kind of torment to you, I hate to compel you. It is the last thing I want to do. Especially after when you said yes! But please, consider this my last “compulsion” to you. Please be here.
I hate myself for being such an intolerable entity to you right now and getting angry on you is not what I intend. What I intend is to love you for the eternity to come. What I have for you is not a riddle to you anymore, you reign in my sandcastle.
This is all I want to say, justify myself. So, there.
I love you darling dream! be good.
Entirely yours,
Mr. Holmes.
Dear bohemian,
First of all, don’t worry, this is not the substitute for the letters that I intend to write today, I will write it on paper as I have been doing, this one just something entirely else. I wanted to say something and since you’re unavailable, I guess this will have to do the job.
Umm… I don’t know! I had this one sorted out, but now it’s all running away from my mind, like a crowd dispersing away from something horrifying, I’ll try my best to gather things up. You asked me to give you a valid reason that why should you be ‘answering’ to them. I tried to, but in utter frankness, I have no reason at all. No reasons as to why should you visit. I know now you’ll ask why then I gave you those reasons, but believe me, I had no other option. I am sorry. I was angry and my mind was like one raging battlefield. I was fucked up when you said you won’t come. I won’t repeat it here again; instead, I shall try to make one point. One simple expanded point.
I know you can’t process the complication of things, and it is not a bad thing, simplicity is something what we all try to achieve. But, please, just try to disperse from the everyday conundrum you hold and listen. Sometimes, it too is okay to face the complication; I am not saying that you have to be on a quest to solve all that is complicated, but the things in the light of recent events that we both are going through, it was bound to happen that sooner or later, we were to face this kind of thing. The reason why they want to meet you is because they do not want it to be too late! They don’t want to go things totally out of hand where there would be nothing left to be sorted out anymore. I know this may sound hard for you, but believe me, I too am not in very much of a comfort either! You are one person who makes everything right for me in my life, the one who matters the most and I do not want anything to go into dire chaos. Sure there will be nothing wrong, I believe it, and probably you believe it too, but please, just stop and think! If I was in your place, I would have to face such things too, and I know this very well that I WILL!! There will be a time when I will be the one who’ll face such complication too, I am getting ready anyway! So please, after reading this, be very calm and think if it’s justified or not. Well, you are coming anyway. I just wanted to speak. I couldn’t get my eyes together last night. I slept all day today but the same thing was crossing out. I needed to write.
Believe me darling, I hate to be this kind of torment to you, I hate to compel you. It is the last thing I want to do. Especially after when you said yes! But please, consider this my last “compulsion” to you. Please be here.
I hate myself for being such an intolerable entity to you right now and getting angry on you is not what I intend. What I intend is to love you for the eternity to come. What I have for you is not a riddle to you anymore, you reign in my sandcastle.
This is all I want to say, justify myself. So, there.
I love you darling dream! be good.
Entirely yours,
Mr. Holmes.
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