Wednesday 31 July 2013

Ribhu,Bulbuli,Me and a monsoon of desires.

31st July, 2013

Mother and father went out for a while this evening, brother was in tuition. Me, finding nothing yet to do, decided to read 'Ribhur Srabon' by Buddhadeb Guha. A small book in bangla, hardly 70-80 pages, nothing "intellectual". A story about a little boy.
It had stopped raining moments ago, now only the drizzle and fragrance remained.The wet fragrance of cement and asphalt and rain drops.Ironic! Srabon in bangla means rain. Although the book's backdrop is a Bengal village in monsoon, nonetheless,city rain was doing just fine.
While reading this book,i came across a paragraph.This particular para was said by the secondary protagonist,an eccentric village girl named Bulbuli.Eccentric and poor. Ribhu,who is the primary protagonist asked her what she wants as gift on her marriage. She answered-

    "On the day of my marriage,if you can,fold this monsoon sky;scent the sky with fresh torn leaves of a lemon tree and pomelo tree and send me that sky..If you can,send me some sunshine,the sunshine after a thunderstorm,a sunshine that makes gold pure,the sunshine,where dragonflies dance.Will you do this for me?" Ribhu answers,bewildered, yet answers, ‘YES’!
Bulbuli continues, ‘Bring me the snakes made of light which plays with us when we swim underwater. I will keep them as pets,they will keep the darkness away. Darkness is very painful  Ribhu!!’
Ribhu answers- ‘you really don’t want anything ..nothing for real.’ Bulbuli says-‘stupid Ribhu, who would marry a mad,witch like me? These gifts are for the marriage in my dreams..dreams which will not be real!!’

   After this,the story continues a little and ends disruptively. We will never know if Bulbuli was married. We will never know if Ribhu gave her what she asked. The story finishes where it actually starts.
  For almost 20 minutes, my mind was blank,only playing the lines what Bulbuli said. Her unsaid wants,untold desires seemed bizarre! Monsoon sky? Sunshine? What kind of person actually wants these? A babble of crazy.. then I realized, don’t we all have a same desire? When it rains or a flower blooms,don’t we all wish something strange? To have a sky of our own? A sky of happiness? Somewhere, however deep it maybe,there are some stories,some lines left unsaid. The pure emotions of desires and wishes which we hardly let out for we fear to be laughed on or getting rejected.. the cloud forms,it gets dark,but it never rains,and our dreams are strangled to death..Bulbuli was labeled deranged. But perhaps for me, for Ribhu and for them who have a slightest iota of emotions, she had a perfect sense..maybe her desires and dreams seemed bizarre,a mock to those who were normal, but sometimes,bizarre things has all the answers.

   A knock on the door..mom & dad returned,the drizzling has stopped.The petrichor is fading away…
                    Ribhu has left a share of his Srabon for me..Did I heard Bulbuli laughing??

Friday 26 July 2013

Home is Where Heart is

26th july,2013

So,i am back in delhi again..after spending almost a month in Bengal,it seems that i have had my share of 'adventures',if i may call it. Sitting in front of my laptop,eyes fixed on the screen and fingers moving and resting on the keyboard,every iota,every tiniest impulse of my memory is going through random flashbacks,searching for some brighter scenes from otherwise a dull life.
       My journey started with a quote of mine on facebook,"they say home is where heart is..maybe i'll find mine where i am going.." ; i left the city of delhi drenched in rain. 28th june,when i stepped out of the train on Sealdah station,something familiar touched me,a strange feeling which does not comes out very easily..my destinations were divided into 3,Baruipur,Murshidabad and Bandel. Since i had limited days, i thought it was best to get everything life is giving me now..now i won't bore my readers (if any) with whole factual descriptions of these places because then it will be hard enough to end. 7-8 days to each areas,i would like to admit that this was perhaps the best cure for my 'eternal boredom syndrome',a thing which i thought would never come..
     I have seen that many,or all of the people i know,tend to find heaven or paradise in mountains or seas.That,for me,does not work..my paradise,as it seems,builds itself wherever it finds suitable..perhaps thats why i have my differences with people..mainstream issues...this whole month,i found my paradise wherever i went,whatever i saw,whomever i met..this wasn't easy,but it did a marvelous job freeing me,rejuvenating me..
  23rd of july,i left Bengal..again leaving a city with rain..seems that me and rain have an unspoken relation..
           Rest,i think is easy to comprehend; what i did in the vacation is insignificant for people,as none are really interested in my babbling about the fun i had..concluding,i would say that i did found my heart,or the half of it..found it where i thought it would be and left it there,so that i can visit my home again and again..the existing half heart is here,with family,with friends..