Pujo 2013. Reminiscence and realizations #2.

26th August, 2013.

Well, basically, reminiscences are for pleasure of human mind. People like to visit the past when either their present is not that much bright and things looked pretty good back then. Or when an unanticipated event takes place, good, bad doesn't matter..
Today our class ended at 2:00.. After spending almost one and half an hour with Akbar and his land revenue systems,finally our class stood victorious.. Dishant, my classmate and friend left the college earlier, apologising to me for that..(girlfriend issues). I decided to walk home,even though i've been advised time and again to take an autorickshaw but I prefer to walk.
My school comes on the way home from college, along with shiv mandir and b block park,where i saw the heap of bamboos kept for the pandals for durga pujo. It didn't bothered me until I crossed my school, which coincidentally was over. Students were going home. Some in buses,vans, some walked like me..And then it came crashing down.. 3 years back, when i was in school, well, my last year in school, it occurred me then that after this,the most important thing of my school days will be over. During my school days, i used the bus services. In the morning, during the pujo month I waited eagerly for a very important view..the bamboos kept in the parks and mandir for the pandals where the pujo will be held, and then i boasted about it to my mother.Ma just laughed. I never understood why she did that, and till date she carries it on. Today, i was taken right in 2002, when all these started, and then realized that none of them will be back. I stood there in front of my school watching all these students, laughing, hooting, shouting,seizing the days..They didn't had a darn care for the world so to speak. Students who knew me, greeted me with the warmest regards and went their way. They don't know it yet, that all of these will be a part of their memories in coming years ; ignorance is such a bliss. By the time they will realize this bitter fact, everything will be like a scented smoke in air,just the fragrance will remain. I just hope that their memories are worth visiting.
After a while, unsuccessfully trying to control the tears from coming out,with a deep sigh,I stepped the road to home.

pujo 2013..reminiscence and realizations #1

19th August,2013.

me-"Ma!! Ma!??....MOOMMM???"

my mother-"what?? why are you screaming like there's a fire?"

me-look at the t.v..the ad..do you see?

ma-what?

me-pujo ad..only 2 months left!! do you see?

ma-OH YES..and plus starts your pujo lunacy...

This conversations takes place every year..that has been my personal custom for almost 6-7 years. Just after the monsoon ends, when the sky is done with the gloom and dark clouds, the sun shines to its fullest, like it has been longing to do that for a long time. The clouds which has been wrapped in a torpor, suddenly wakes up, all bright and shaped like perfect balls of cotton as we were taught in our childhood just to quench our queries. Autumn arrives. Leaves start to turn yellow and red, like all the trees are on fire, screaming for some attention from the passerby, like the rains has washed all the green out of them, giving them an exotic color of  calm flames. Heaps of decayed leaves can be seen on roadside and sometimes the suppressed yet unquenchable temptation kicking the heap comes out. Mood swings, from despondence to a strange, mixed emotion of both sadness and exuberance.

For me, autumn is something else entirely.. as mentioned, the month of durga pujo arrives this month..Suddenly the uneventful, stagnant life turns as extreme as it can be. The whole year, as it goes, is typically boring, with some touch of happiness, so the 4 days of pujo becomes..good.. last year I realized that pujo, for me, means something else entirely. All these years, I have looking it from a straight, confined point of view. Only thing I knew back then had became meaningless now. It took me almost 4-5 years to change my perspective.. but then, all the good things are for those who are patient enough. Last year’s pujo was somewhat conscience altering, for it made me realize that life is not only about serious things, now and then, I, we, should do mindless silly bat crap crazy things once in a while.. and, if anything, people around you do matter, no matter how hard you try to deny this simple fact..

Heh ! Realizations are hard hitting, especially when it comes unexpected..

That’s all for now, I guess.. hope to be realize more..